Is lying in my arms tonight
Lord, I ask that He for just this moment
Simply be my child
In the grind of life, these interruptions by our children seem trying. It seems like "really.... one more thing?" I know I have certainly felt this for the last 10 days with Meagan waking in the night, having on and off fevers, refusing certain feedings, being fussy...it has definitely been a sleepless week for this Mama. After hearing this verse from Joseph's Lullaby, though, I started thinking about how he must have felt. Knowing his child was born only to die to save him from his own sins. What a bittersweet moment for a new father. And at the same time, what a selfless moment for a new father. I wonder...did Joseph dread those moments when baby Jesus woke in the night? Did he dread the little interruptions that happen with a young child? I'm sure, at some point, he was only human and did have those feelings. But I also think Joseph must have cherished every moment, and literally, every moment, knowing what his Son was destined to be for the world. He knew his Son would not always be just his own.
I was on the brink of losing my patience a few nights back...it was the 10th day Meagan had been unbearably fussy, my older girls were very tired and bouncing off the walls, and I had been going non stop all week between house chores, bill paying, and rehearsing for our Christmas concert. I was in the kitchen cleaning up and listening to all the noise build in my house. Just as it was starting to really push me to my breaking point, I looked over to check on Meagan and saw this:
Tonight I plan on giving my girls a little bit longer hug before bed. I plan on holding Meagan a little longer. And even if she is up yet again, instead of thinking about my lack of sleep, or the annoyance of being awakened in the night, I will try to instead enjoy the silence of us together. That moment when she is surely, just mine.