When we were gifted Meagan as our child, (and yes, she is a gift, as are all our children), there were a lot of questions. There still are, to be honest. As a matter of fact, we probably have more questions now about her future than we did when she was born. As she grows, life gets complicated, and so do her challenges. These last few months have been particularly hard because they were the first few times we literally felt helpless and were very scared she may not come home with us. Our girls, for the first time, felt the fear of their sister not being with them. But those experiences have made us realize how strong we are as a family and how much Meagan means to us as a unit. Because Meagan is fun. And our family wouldn't be fun without her.
In Meagan's 5 short years, she has taught us how to laugh in serious situations. She has taught us how to think freely without reservation. She has taught us how to ask questions, answer without a filter, and say what's on our mind. Meagan has taught us humor, compassion, and friendship. Most of all, Meagan has taught us how to love unconditionally. She has taught us judgement-free, unfiltered, pure unconditional love. Of all Meagan's accomplishments, I think this is the most important.
As a parent we always talk about unconditional love. We love our kids no matter what. Of course we do. But we are also human and we still have tiny stigmas that come along with that. Not Meagan. She is free of those reservations we struggle to ignore. I have seen her hug someone after they were mean to her - she being totally unaware of the "mean" but just sensing the person needed a hug. I have seen her rub her sisters heads when they were sick even though she may be having an off day. I have seen her snuggle her dad when he's tired. I have seen her give kisses to her baby sister when she's crying. Meagan doesn't sit around and analyze whether someone needs love...she just gives it. Without judgement. Without hesitation. Meagan really is love, to the truest definition.
We were blessed this year to have many friends be able to attend Meagan's birthday celebration. We probably had close to 100 people at the house throughout the day. The afternoon was filled with laughter, celebration and fun. Meagan was beaming when everyone sang her "Happy Birthday" and loved seeing all her friends. She spent the evening Facetiming with her extended family far away and loved talking to her grandparents and aunts, uncles, and cousins. It was quite a celebration for a 5 year old. But, as we already know, she isn't your typical 5 year old. She is loved by many.
I am so excited to see what the next 5 years hold for sweet Meagan. Surely there will be more difficulty ahead. But we know that, right? I just hope we can get through it all with as much poise and love as she has helped us manifest up until this point. The world has enough darkness. I'm so thankful that Meagan is here to keep spreading her light. Her beautiful, judgement free light of love.
Looking back, I now see that it's not Meagan who has come a long way in 5 years...but really the rest of us, who have been lucky enough to encounter Meagan's love if even for a moment. We have so much more to learn from her little soul, and I cannot wait to open my heart to those lessons. I hope you will too.