Meagan came home Thursday night from the hospital. Friday she was still pretty miserable - back to "herself" a lot more, but, I could tell she was still "down." Saturday morning she really woke up "herself" for the first time since her infection. She was smiling, babbling, and just seemed like the meds had "kicked in" and helped her turn the corner... I could tell she had really started to feel better. I was so glad about this, but of course the rest of our house was in chaos. I had lost a week of laundry, house chores, and organizing the kids end of school year stuff...but most of all we lost that week of time as a family. I knew my older girls were especially feeling this because they really count on our routine day to day and when Mommy isn't there, it is really tough on them. We had no grand plans for the holiday weekend, but, after talking to Brian we decided to randomly shoot up to Chattanooga, TN. It's only about an hour from where we live and makes for a nice little getaway without being too far from home. I figured we could all use the break, and time away to just regroup as a family. We packed a small bag, loaded up Meagans feeding pump and meds, and hopped in the car. The girls were beyond excited!
We planned a few outdoor activities while in Chattanooga, one of which was taking the girls to a minor league game (which is great because the seats are cheap and close so they can actually see the baseball game). We happened to sit next to a couple who we chatted with off and on throughout the game. Come to find out, he was a Perinatologist. Go figure. They were very nice and even bought our girls popcorn because they were behaving so well. I thought that was really sweet and the girls were just so excited to get an unexpected treat. They also got to see some fun fireworks after the game celebrating Memorial Day weekend. Maura was not too fond of the noise...but Meagan liked them just fine!
We also planned a few hikes through the famous Rock City and also underground to see Ruby Falls. It was such gorgeous weather, we figured a lot of outside activity would be great for the girls - and the fresh air would be great for Meagan after being in the stuffy hospital the week before. The girls enjoyed the hikes, exploring the natural rock formations, and expending a lot of energy walking, running, climbing and overall enjoying the outside activities. From rock climbing to watching live mountain music to swimming at the hotel - we had such a great time and a much needed break away from it all as a family - "just" the 7 of us.
When we got back, one of the first things I was asked was how Meagan was feeling. I replied that she was doing much better and had been such a happy baby over the weekend. And that's when the question was posed - how could we just pack up and go away for the weekend when Meagan had just been at Children's? Weren't we worried? And that is where I realized that from the outside, a lot of things we do probably do look a little "crazy." From the outside, it may seem silly to run out of town on the tail of a hospital stay. Or to plan a family vacation after a surgery. And the list can go on and on.... but from the inside, it is completely normal to do these things. If we try to wait for months and months of uninterrupted time to feel "ok" to plan family activities, we would never do anything. We would always be waiting around.
I guess that's what I learned over our weekend away. Thinking back on my friend's initial question the week prior about "waiting for the infamous shoe to drop" .... I guess we just don't. We don't wait around. We don't constantly worry. We just "do." We just "go." We just live.
Life is too short to wait around. If we did, something great could pass us by. I don't want Meagan to be a bystander. I want her to be the driver of her experiences. The infamous shoe is there. We know it. But until it shows its ugly self again, we press on. There's no waiting in this house. We cherish the happy.... we share the love....we grasp onto faith. By doing this, we live. And I think Meagan likes that. :)